The practice, Of practicing, Often
Tempestuous, Trickling at reserves
Pour your viol, Pourrrr it through
Until the grey comes out of you
Pour your viol, Pourrr it thru
Until the grey comes out of you
Get used to slurping, Get used to the slurp
Of nothing, Little fancies of sumting
A London sumting? Or a professional espionage
Pour your viol, Pour it everlasting
The practice of practicing
Often tempestuous, just liiike my pen.
-Mrb
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Sunday, 8 January 2017
2017 Mrb Poetry - To Myself
Mrb - To myself
Where my mind bleats for quiet, my heart skips for an answer
Where my head loses memories by the second, a whisper is often something I can muster
I muster
To myself
that cold cold chill
That permeates the radium of the world
Turning pipes inside out
Piping hot food used for body charcoal
And the ash of time as a vanguard for nails on a cross.
Where my mind bleats for quiet, my heart skips for an answer
Where my head loses memories by the second, a whisper is often something I can muster
I muster
To myself
that cold cold chill
That permeates the radium of the world
Turning pipes inside out
Piping hot food used for body charcoal
And the ash of time as a vanguard for nails on a cross.
Wednesday, 5 October 2016
Retrograde Reviews: Bonnie Prince Billy & Bitchin' Bajas
"Nature, makes us, for ourselves".
The music on Bonnie Prince Billy's latest rustic folk outing starts melodically enough, before embracing woodwind and the suitably gentile lines "may life throw you a pleasant curve". It's on the second track that the rhythmic focus really kicks into gear, loosening the weight of a breathy introduction. "Nature, makes us, for ourselves".
You see, with a track title aim to be storyteliing meets self-help-provoking, this album can be taken kindly to from the first listen. The meanings spread out like fireflies, meeting a warming destination, a natural concave. Bonnie Prince is ast as the governor of a hundred baritones; instruments serve his plans to assist us in becoming calmer, getting happier.
Much of the sound palette is pure rustic folk, a Johnny Cash meets Joanna Newsome quirkiness abounds throughout. There are no female vocals though, only a journeyman's horn of plenty with guitar chops to match. I first heard about BPB, not so humbly around 10 years ago, so I know he's been about the field for a long time. But at the same time, it's as if he's trod a heavy path through folk and country, meaning he understands how to not complicate a tune.
This is most evident on euphoric closing piece "Your Hard Work Is About To Pay Off. Keep On Keeping On". Incidentally the ending is abrupt, leaving the listener craving a second shot of the honey-whiskeyed atmosphere Bitchin Bajas and Billy create. That's how the record feels essentially, like whisky. It's so addictive I can drown in it, but for the luck of the draw, it's only my sorrows that are cleansed.
Mick R. Buckingham
The music on Bonnie Prince Billy's latest rustic folk outing starts melodically enough, before embracing woodwind and the suitably gentile lines "may life throw you a pleasant curve". It's on the second track that the rhythmic focus really kicks into gear, loosening the weight of a breathy introduction. "Nature, makes us, for ourselves".
You see, with a track title aim to be storyteliing meets self-help-provoking, this album can be taken kindly to from the first listen. The meanings spread out like fireflies, meeting a warming destination, a natural concave. Bonnie Prince is ast as the governor of a hundred baritones; instruments serve his plans to assist us in becoming calmer, getting happier.
Much of the sound palette is pure rustic folk, a Johnny Cash meets Joanna Newsome quirkiness abounds throughout. There are no female vocals though, only a journeyman's horn of plenty with guitar chops to match. I first heard about BPB, not so humbly around 10 years ago, so I know he's been about the field for a long time. But at the same time, it's as if he's trod a heavy path through folk and country, meaning he understands how to not complicate a tune.
This is most evident on euphoric closing piece "Your Hard Work Is About To Pay Off. Keep On Keeping On". Incidentally the ending is abrupt, leaving the listener craving a second shot of the honey-whiskeyed atmosphere Bitchin Bajas and Billy create. That's how the record feels essentially, like whisky. It's so addictive I can drown in it, but for the luck of the draw, it's only my sorrows that are cleansed.
Mick R. Buckingham
Thursday, 14 January 2016
SubVersion Stop 260: Xmas Charts from Muttley Statto & MetaLX...
SubVersion End Of Year Chart from Muttley (http://www.focisleft.bandcamp.com / http://www.twitter.com/MuttleySV, http://www.kapsil.net/muttley, http://www.facebook.com/muttley.subversion.3, http://www.subvertcentral.blogspot.co.uk, http://www.mixcloud.com, www.souncloud.com/subversion-2, http://www.nightshiftmag.co.uk writing, http://www.fluid-radio.co.uk writing).
A lot can happen in a year...I found love within myself. I released albums with good reviews. I bought lots of mind-scultping records. I delightedly changed my accommodation with help of the local mental health services. And I realised, all along the way, that I didn't have to go anywhere - the party moves with the indivisual.
01. Favourite track: Run close by Tamaryn - Sugar Fix, Little Red - The Huntsman, Kid Moxie - Mysteries Of Love (feat. Angelo Badalementi), and Marina & The Diamonds - Gold, and finally, Markus Guetner - Magnetar (A Strangely Isolated Place vinyl, like our space station, frankly)...
02. My album of the year is Bjork - Vulnicura, followed by Bat For Lashes - Sexwitch, then Kid Moxie - 1888, then Tamaryn - Cranekiss. David Borden - Music For Amplified Keyboard Instruments, Marina Diamandis - Froot. Of my own solo LPs, it's Nothing, Early Riser (released at Rapture, Witney, Oxon UK today), What I Think - Right Bus Of The Psyche, or LUV. All my releases are available at www.focisleft.bandcamp.com.
03. Favourite label: Low Point. Bought their entire discography (32 + digital releases, subscribe to their newsletter, they have 2 new tapes from Kogumaza today - it's Hardwick's label) on Bandcamp this Autumn. Kyle Bobby Dunn, Gareth Hardwick, Lviv, P Jorgesen, Ex-Easter Island Head, Apalusa. So many more. Absolute goldmine catalog if you love minimalist ambient and drone.
04. Favourite mixtape: Foci's Left - Any And All Things - Live @ GTI, Sep 26th 2015 (Live improvised mixset, first electronics gig conscious). Fixated for 15 years in 34 minutes.
05. Favourite book: Emotioanal Intelligence And Understanding Emotional Intelligence: Daniel Goleman, pbk 1995.
06. Favourite gig: Gig of zee year I went to Friday 18th December, 10 months on:
After the Thought begins our evening with a warm and enveloping techno cheer that doesn't prepare the audience for what's to come. In the best way of course, because Gappy Tooth never disappoint in terms of stylistic diversity and act quality control. Matt Chapman-Jones, who is After The Thought, uses a Launch software technique that he's honed to a fine ambiental art since Midwinter Dronefest this time last year.
Utilising sparing guitar in reverb clusters with a different way with a Sigur Ros sample, cryptically it sets the tone for The August List, a husband and wife team I've never seen live before. Their demo of the month in Nightshiftmag.com 2012 impressed me, but now there are extra, gentile layers to the multi-tracked sound, taking the Lawrence vibe Matt had earlier and injecting auto harp, steely guitar chops spanning decades of folk arrangements and an intergender icy vocal call and response. Go see them - they're glad and very good.
Zurich could be a loose cannon in print, a glorious take on New Order speech styling s and Blue Monday catapulted into oblivion. Borne from the smoke of local Oxford band The Scholars, they're like the best combination of two of my fave post punk groups: The Horrors and lesser known rockers Glint from the United States. Much of their themes are loosely piloted - driven by raucous noise, and makes their and headline act Balloon Ascents appearance well worth the wait.
There's a lot of punches pulled by a 4-strong bunch of youths equally to the previous guitar storm, but Balloon Ascents tone down the heat inside the candle and hold the Radiohead, not dick head light strongly, with a clutch of new songs, most from 'Dont Look Down', making Nightshiftmag.com Top 25 in 2015. Their set is the perfect send off to Gappy Tooth's year in gigging, and mature lyrics tread the band to places where the instruments tell them that they're wrong. Gig of the year? For me personally, by a mile.
- besides my first live audience piano consciously at the James Street Tavern alongside Megan Josephy, Tom, Hugh McManners, Kosmosis , Cowley and first live audience keyboard and electronics consciously at The Wheatsheaf, High St, Oxford, experiences. Bjork at Wilderness Festival, of course, Braziers Park.
08. Favourite food (or Snax): I'll break this up into 3: meal, curry meal and Dastardly Exposure drink. Meal was the one I had today at Hackett's Bar, Witney. High Street, who had a saxophonist akin to Mikael Tariverdiev seemingly using a program to play along to like Music Maker Jam for iPhone. It was Chicken & Ham Hock Pie w peppered creamy mash, steamed veg (broccoli, carrots). Close runner up on the meal to the cruise Lobster w butter Sauce, asparagus and wild mushroom soup.
Curry meal was on the cruise, gotta say, despite wonderful Mutton Kodai, Chicken Balti and Korma curries from my favourite land restaurant, The First Floor Cowley, and Spiced Monkfish at La Cucina Cowley. Sindhu restaurant, Ventura ship. Soft shell crab (all edible) from the head chef with sauces and appetisers. But the real win came in the 3 course main meal after that: a sequence of rich korma, Lamb Rogan Josh and Tandoori Salmon Tofu, w a choice of high standard Marshmellow Cake or Chocolate Mega Profiterole. Included rice, sundries and Tarka Dhal. The main course was Atil Kochar's Big Plate.
DE drink would be Bavaria Lager, or Lager Shandy, from Holland. You can buy it in stores like Morrisons, ASDA (we have these in Carterton, Oxon - ASDA just opened).
09. Favourite guilty pleasure: Blogging
10. Favourite random moment: finding love (in a hopeful place week 22nd Feb ending) randomly, for the first time. The real kind of love, not the digital maelstrom I am sludgily used to. Hats off to a lovely lady for helping me heal from the time I was without feeling. Now I feel so loved and so alive.
A lot can happen in a year...I found love within myself. I released albums with good reviews. I bought lots of mind-scultping records. I delightedly changed my accommodation with help of the local mental health services. And I realised, all along the way, that I didn't have to go anywhere - the party moves with the indivisual.
01. Favourite track: Run close by Tamaryn - Sugar Fix, Little Red - The Huntsman, Kid Moxie - Mysteries Of Love (feat. Angelo Badalementi), and Marina & The Diamonds - Gold, and finally, Markus Guetner - Magnetar (A Strangely Isolated Place vinyl, like our space station, frankly)...
02. My album of the year is Bjork - Vulnicura, followed by Bat For Lashes - Sexwitch, then Kid Moxie - 1888, then Tamaryn - Cranekiss. David Borden - Music For Amplified Keyboard Instruments, Marina Diamandis - Froot. Of my own solo LPs, it's Nothing, Early Riser (released at Rapture, Witney, Oxon UK today), What I Think - Right Bus Of The Psyche, or LUV. All my releases are available at www.focisleft.bandcamp.com.
03. Favourite label: Low Point. Bought their entire discography (32 + digital releases, subscribe to their newsletter, they have 2 new tapes from Kogumaza today - it's Hardwick's label) on Bandcamp this Autumn. Kyle Bobby Dunn, Gareth Hardwick, Lviv, P Jorgesen, Ex-Easter Island Head, Apalusa. So many more. Absolute goldmine catalog if you love minimalist ambient and drone.
04. Favourite mixtape: Foci's Left - Any And All Things - Live @ GTI, Sep 26th 2015 (Live improvised mixset, first electronics gig conscious). Fixated for 15 years in 34 minutes.
05. Favourite book: Emotioanal Intelligence And Understanding Emotional Intelligence: Daniel Goleman, pbk 1995.
06. Favourite gig: Gig of zee year I went to Friday 18th December, 10 months on:
After the Thought begins our evening with a warm and enveloping techno cheer that doesn't prepare the audience for what's to come. In the best way of course, because Gappy Tooth never disappoint in terms of stylistic diversity and act quality control. Matt Chapman-Jones, who is After The Thought, uses a Launch software technique that he's honed to a fine ambiental art since Midwinter Dronefest this time last year.
Utilising sparing guitar in reverb clusters with a different way with a Sigur Ros sample, cryptically it sets the tone for The August List, a husband and wife team I've never seen live before. Their demo of the month in Nightshiftmag.com 2012 impressed me, but now there are extra, gentile layers to the multi-tracked sound, taking the Lawrence vibe Matt had earlier and injecting auto harp, steely guitar chops spanning decades of folk arrangements and an intergender icy vocal call and response. Go see them - they're glad and very good.
Zurich could be a loose cannon in print, a glorious take on New Order speech styling s and Blue Monday catapulted into oblivion. Borne from the smoke of local Oxford band The Scholars, they're like the best combination of two of my fave post punk groups: The Horrors and lesser known rockers Glint from the United States. Much of their themes are loosely piloted - driven by raucous noise, and makes their and headline act Balloon Ascents appearance well worth the wait.
There's a lot of punches pulled by a 4-strong bunch of youths equally to the previous guitar storm, but Balloon Ascents tone down the heat inside the candle and hold the Radiohead, not dick head light strongly, with a clutch of new songs, most from 'Dont Look Down', making Nightshiftmag.com Top 25 in 2015. Their set is the perfect send off to Gappy Tooth's year in gigging, and mature lyrics tread the band to places where the instruments tell them that they're wrong. Gig of the year? For me personally, by a mile.
- besides my first live audience piano consciously at the James Street Tavern alongside Megan Josephy, Tom, Hugh McManners, Kosmosis , Cowley and first live audience keyboard and electronics consciously at The Wheatsheaf, High St, Oxford, experiences. Bjork at Wilderness Festival, of course, Braziers Park.
08. Favourite food (or Snax): I'll break this up into 3: meal, curry meal and Dastardly Exposure drink. Meal was the one I had today at Hackett's Bar, Witney. High Street, who had a saxophonist akin to Mikael Tariverdiev seemingly using a program to play along to like Music Maker Jam for iPhone. It was Chicken & Ham Hock Pie w peppered creamy mash, steamed veg (broccoli, carrots). Close runner up on the meal to the cruise Lobster w butter Sauce, asparagus and wild mushroom soup.
Curry meal was on the cruise, gotta say, despite wonderful Mutton Kodai, Chicken Balti and Korma curries from my favourite land restaurant, The First Floor Cowley, and Spiced Monkfish at La Cucina Cowley. Sindhu restaurant, Ventura ship. Soft shell crab (all edible) from the head chef with sauces and appetisers. But the real win came in the 3 course main meal after that: a sequence of rich korma, Lamb Rogan Josh and Tandoori Salmon Tofu, w a choice of high standard Marshmellow Cake or Chocolate Mega Profiterole. Included rice, sundries and Tarka Dhal. The main course was Atil Kochar's Big Plate.
DE drink would be Bavaria Lager, or Lager Shandy, from Holland. You can buy it in stores like Morrisons, ASDA (we have these in Carterton, Oxon - ASDA just opened).
09. Favourite guilty pleasure: Blogging
10. Favourite random moment: finding love (in a hopeful place week 22nd Feb ending) randomly, for the first time. The real kind of love, not the digital maelstrom I am sludgily used to. Hats off to a lovely lady for helping me heal from the time I was without feeling. Now I feel so loved and so alive.
It's about that time of the year again. I'm glad to be reminded early, actually. 
01. Favourite track(s):
Chris Janson - Buy Me A Boat
Miranda Lambert - Smokin and Drinkin
Big & Rich - Run Away
02. Favourite album(s):
A lot of house/electronica/dnb from the late 90s, early 00s
03. Favourite label:
Haole
04. Favourite mixtape:
2 Bad Mice Mix - Euphony
Atmoteka 2.4 - Aural Imbalance
Southern Bluegrass III - dj MetaLX
05. Favourite SC thread:
Anything with good banter and or music
06. Favourite gig:
DJ Euphoria Live on futuredrumz.com 13.11.15
07. Favourite book(s):
Morris, Marc. 2015. A Great and Terrible King: Edward I and the Forging of Britain. London: Pegasus Books.
Morris, Marc. 2015. King John: Treachery and Tyranny in Medieval England: The road to Magna Carta. London: Pegasus Books.
Seward, Desmond. 2014. Eleanor of Aquitaine: The Queen Mother of the Middle Ages. London: Pegasus Books.
Davis, Jefferson. 2010. The Rise of the Confederate Government. New York: Barnes & Noble.
08. Favourite food (or Snax):
Beer!
09. Favourite guilty pleasure:
Blogging
10. Favourite random moment:
Finally realising just how different I am from those around me.
Chris Janson - Buy Me A Boat
Miranda Lambert - Smokin and Drinkin
Big & Rich - Run Away
02. Favourite album(s):
A lot of house/electronica/dnb from the late 90s, early 00s
03. Favourite label:
Haole
04. Favourite mixtape:
2 Bad Mice Mix - Euphony
Atmoteka 2.4 - Aural Imbalance
Southern Bluegrass III - dj MetaLX
05. Favourite SC thread:
Anything with good banter and or music
06. Favourite gig:
DJ Euphoria Live on futuredrumz.com 13.11.15
07. Favourite book(s):
Morris, Marc. 2015. A Great and Terrible King: Edward I and the Forging of Britain. London: Pegasus Books.
Morris, Marc. 2015. King John: Treachery and Tyranny in Medieval England: The road to Magna Carta. London: Pegasus Books.
Seward, Desmond. 2014. Eleanor of Aquitaine: The Queen Mother of the Middle Ages. London: Pegasus Books.
Davis, Jefferson. 2010. The Rise of the Confederate Government. New York: Barnes & Noble.
08. Favourite food (or Snax):
Beer!
09. Favourite guilty pleasure:
Blogging
10. Favourite random moment:
Finally realising just how different I am from those around me.
01. Favourite track: Roger Robinson - It Soon Come
*https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0KxI2ukcEuw
02. Favourite album: André O. Möller & Hans Eberhard Maldfeld - In Memory of James Tenney (Edition Wandelweiser)
http://www.wandelweiser.de/_e-w-records/...r1503.html
03. Favourite label: Edition Wandelweiser
http://www.wandelweiser.de/
04. Favourite mixtape: K-NeT Karant - The 40th Papy Zhamiq Birthday mixes (June 2013, but I only discovered them this year)
http://www.artskorps.org/labels/192-knet...thday.html
05. Favourite SC thread: POLITICS So Jeremy Corbyn is the new boogie-man?
http://subvertcentral.com/forum/showthre...?tid=61147
06a. Favourite gig (Jan-Jun): Mesa of the Lost Women ft. Junko, Rammel Club, Nottingham (20th June)
http://www.rammelclub.org/2015/06/rammel...-lost.html
06b. Favourite gig (Jul-Dec): Ex Cathedra, Southwell Minster, Notts (10th December)
http://excathedra.co.uk/gaudete-southwell-minster/
07. Favourite book: Matthew Collin - Pop Grenade (Zero Books)
http://www.zero-books.net/books/pop-grenade
08. Favourite food (or Snax): Tunnock's Caramel Wafers
http://www.tunnock.co.uk/products/caramel-wafer/
09. Favourite guilty pleasure: Scoring 158 in an official Mensa test (Cattell III B)
http://www.mensa.org.uk/iq-tests
10. Favourite random moment: Being interviewed about genderqueer (as background research for a US web magazine article)
http://www.slate.com/blogs/outward/2015/..._from.html
*https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0KxI2ukcEuw
02. Favourite album: André O. Möller & Hans Eberhard Maldfeld - In Memory of James Tenney (Edition Wandelweiser)
http://www.wandelweiser.de/_e-w-records/...r1503.html
03. Favourite label: Edition Wandelweiser
http://www.wandelweiser.de/
04. Favourite mixtape: K-NeT Karant - The 40th Papy Zhamiq Birthday mixes (June 2013, but I only discovered them this year)
http://www.artskorps.org/labels/192-knet...thday.html
05. Favourite SC thread: POLITICS So Jeremy Corbyn is the new boogie-man?
http://subvertcentral.com/forum/showthre...?tid=61147
06a. Favourite gig (Jan-Jun): Mesa of the Lost Women ft. Junko, Rammel Club, Nottingham (20th June)
http://www.rammelclub.org/2015/06/rammel...-lost.html
06b. Favourite gig (Jul-Dec): Ex Cathedra, Southwell Minster, Notts (10th December)
http://excathedra.co.uk/gaudete-southwell-minster/
07. Favourite book: Matthew Collin - Pop Grenade (Zero Books)
http://www.zero-books.net/books/pop-grenade
08. Favourite food (or Snax): Tunnock's Caramel Wafers
http://www.tunnock.co.uk/products/caramel-wafer/
09. Favourite guilty pleasure: Scoring 158 in an official Mensa test (Cattell III B)
http://www.mensa.org.uk/iq-tests
10. Favourite random moment: Being interviewed about genderqueer (as background research for a US web magazine article)
http://www.slate.com/blogs/outward/2015/..._from.html
Thursday, 30 July 2015
SubVersion Stop 253: A Film Review (And A Bloody Good Film At That)
#muttleyfilm The Voices (Ryan Reynolds, Gemma Arterton, et al., 2015)
Immediate thoughts: incredibly affecting biopic that takes in psychopathology in relation to paranoid schizophrenia.
In short: the easy choice is thr right choice.
I'm interested analysing psychopathy, being prone to psychopathy myself. And psychopathology - paths from the psyche, which takes in mindfulness - as less a severeance-rite.
For some, that's hells road. But for me, and a crucial backbencher ideologue of the film supports: "you're never alone". Health spreads out.
As Aristotle @DailyAristotle says (in an effected context):
As *some* of us know, me from reading Garrick Alder's 'Mind Bombs', "the majority of psychopaths are non-violent". "Some even work in offices" - see the film. "Like their cold-blooded counterparts, they are manipulative and controlling, lack emotional depth. In most respects they are to be seen as highly likely to succeed in corporate culture, where one person is just a cog in a bigger mechanism".
- But the reason ultimately that Ryan's character in the film doesn't succeed is because of complex aftercare from institutionalisation.
The rhizome (root) of all suffering can arise from childhood trauma; judge in the film for yourself. When we take indoctrination, in any field - say schizoaffective (me, and partially psychopathic) with voices I hear (partial guides, but not always) - truth is corrupt.
Thusly this film, beyond just a cheap horror flick archetype with a tacked on message, is multidimesionally revelatory because of surrealism.
Psychopathology is the ultimate subversion. It leads all places, takes no prisoners. Yet it wields the ultimate dogma: for people to become prisoners of their own minds.
Re: and conclusion: the easy choice in paranoid schizophrenia is driven by mindfulness, but this is only the connective. Thusly psychopathy.
Mick Buckingham
[Editor's note: I stumbled across this film in an EE and Wuaki.TV company partnership offer for £1 a film a week for EE customers. I watched it on my phone at a less WiFi traffic time (230pm) and got a non-buffering excellent film for the price of 700mb data (1h43m length).
https://uk.wuaki.tv/movies/the-voices
Immediate thoughts: incredibly affecting biopic that takes in psychopathology in relation to paranoid schizophrenia.
In short: the easy choice is thr right choice.
I'm interested analysing psychopathy, being prone to psychopathy myself. And psychopathology - paths from the psyche, which takes in mindfulness - as less a severeance-rite.
For some, that's hells road. But for me, and a crucial backbencher ideologue of the film supports: "you're never alone". Health spreads out.
As Aristotle
In medicine this [the good] is health; in strategy, victory; in architecture - a building- different things in different arts,
As *some* of us know, me from reading Garrick Alder's 'Mind Bombs', "the majority of psychopaths are non-violent". "Some even work in offices" - see the film. "Like their cold-blooded counterparts, they are manipulative and controlling, lack emotional depth. In most respects they are to be seen as highly likely to succeed in corporate culture, where one person is just a cog in a bigger mechanism".
- But the reason ultimately that Ryan's character in the film doesn't succeed is because of complex aftercare from institutionalisation.
The rhizome (root) of all suffering can arise from childhood trauma; judge in the film for yourself. When we take indoctrination, in any field - say schizoaffective (me, and partially psychopathic) with voices I hear (partial guides, but not always) - truth is corrupt.
Thusly this film, beyond just a cheap horror flick archetype with a tacked on message, is multidimesionally revelatory because of surrealism.
Psychopathology is the ultimate subversion. It leads all places, takes no prisoners. Yet it wields the ultimate dogma: for people to become prisoners of their own minds.
Re: and conclusion: the easy choice in paranoid schizophrenia is driven by mindfulness, but this is only the connective. Thusly psychopathy.
Mick Buckingham
[Editor's note: I stumbled across this film in an EE and Wuaki.TV company partnership offer for £1 a film a week for EE customers. I watched it on my phone at a less WiFi traffic time (230pm) and got a non-buffering excellent film for the price of 700mb data (1h43m length).
https://uk.wuaki.tv/movies/the-voices
Tuesday, 30 December 2014
SubVersion Stop 240: SubVersion's End Of Year 2014 Charts
An example of a previous chart:
2012 (7 contributors - 10 entry format)
This year it's a max of 15 extravaganza with the SV Drip-Feed underpinning everything.
I'm at the bottom for reasons of space. :)
Jonathan
01. Favourite track: Tom Chang - Spinal Tap: Goes to 11
02. Favourite album: various - The Orchestra of Futurist Noise Intoners (Sub Rosa)
03. Favourite label: Dancing Wayang
04. Favourite mixtape: DJ Trax - Mixrace 92-96 mix (for Blog to the Oldskool)
05. Favourite SC thread: In this thread we post tips to decrease apathy
06. Favourite gig: Dave Phillips, Rammel Club, Nottingham
07. Favourite book: Ivan E. Coyote & Rae Spoon - Gender Failure (Arsenal Pulp Press)
08. Favourite food (or Snax): Borders' Dark Chocolate Gingers
09. Favourite guilty pleasure: I'm too old to feel guilty about pleasure.
10. Favourite random moment: looking at the Championship table today and seeing Brentford in third after a 4-0 win
InfiniteSloth
Label (overall): Samurai
Label (for concept and art direction): Weevil Neighborhood
Snax: almond butter and raw cashew cheese tacos
Remix: Hidden Element and Liquid Break - Outsider Blues (Icarus Remix)
Gig: NOizefest, New Orleans
Streaming platform: Spotify
Dig: Max Roach 4 Plays Charlie Parker
Youtube channel: Numberphile
Random moment: Lenny Kravitz strolling down the street while I was walking the dog.
SC thread revivalist: firefinga
Kermit McBollocks Muppet Version 10
Favourite trak - Kermit Ensemble - It's Not Eezy Being Green
Favourite albm - ASC - Troof Bee Told (Soylent Seesawn)
Favourite fred - Kermit's Dictionary Fred, wer I correct der fadar about his grown up werd usage.
Favourite muppet - Muttwee, the ever-stinking ferris Wheel Of Fortune of the internet.
Favwit book - Pool Mackendra - Change Yor Loif In Seven Daze - vewwy moteevational!
Favwit feckwit - Russell Brand, he iz raizin his Sultan status of shitness by der day.
Favoureet telly - Mongrels, so oi can curse at der Nelson for not pimpin der Destinee
Favvit food - caveearr, ho ho ho and a bucket of finest Champagne.
Favourite mix type - Stattzi
Favweet label - Elmo, it bee zee ome of Muttwee's loif in pictures, and in the past tense.
Yelp!
firefinga
*) SC Thread of the Year:
Most "current" sounding subvert dnb made in the 2000's?
http://subvertcentral.com/forum/show...-in-the-2000-
*)Label of the Year:
Euphony's Omni Music, Pinecone Moonshine, Subtle Audio, R & S
*)Mixtape/Radioshows of the Year:
DJ Trax and Nucleus' "Catch A Groove" Shows, Code's "Sublte Audio" shows, both on Jungletrain.net.
Euphony's Omni Sessions, Law's and eXtreme's mixes.
*)Guilty Pleasure 2014:
Reading the News section on Factmag.com and occasionally posting links on here.
*)TV Show 2014:
Last season of "Breaking Bad"
*)Movie 2014:
Snowpiercer
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1706620/
*)Book 2014
Bernie Krause "The Great Animal Orchestra"
http://www.thegreatanimalorchestra.com/
*)Album 2014:
+)Subtle Audio Vol. III
+)The Bug "Angels & Devils"
+)Dev Null's "Darkside Compilation" on 8205 Recordings:
http://8205.bandcamp.com/album/darks...mpilation-2014
*)Track of the Year:
DJ Trax and Naibu "All Is Silent" on Subtle Audio Vol. III
https://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=Q-OvAYtkq0A
Euphony
01. Favourite track: Too numerous, but the following had me groovin' in my undies; Entama - Primeval Forces (Cadence)
02. Favourite album: Cryogenics - Through the Eons LP or Rainforest - Path of the Warrior LP
03. Favourite label: Monochrome
04. Favourite mixtape: Anything mixed by Cryogenics :)
05. Favourite SC thread:
07. Favourite book: Intelligence in nature (Jeremy Narby), Chaos, Creativity and Cosmic Consciousness (Sheldrake, McKenna, Abraham) and Ninja by John Man
08. Favourite food (or Snax): My delectable spicy casseroles
09. Favourite guilty pleasure: Walking on my own in the rain
10. Favourite random moment: Either: going out for a pub meal and sitting there complaining about the fact that they had to change the menu, as the previous one was really good and better value, and complained to the staff as a result. We also didn't like the way they had re-decorated, but we kept that whinge to ourselves. Anyway, it wasn't until we were driving home out of the village that we suddenly spied the pub we were meant to (and thought we were!) eating in! d'oh!....That's something my dad would do! jaysus....or: Trying to gatecrash Brad and Angelina's film set in Gozo only to be chased away by dogs
J-Breaks, www.omnimusic.org
02. Favourite album: Kontext - Dispersal (Absys Limited). Definitely my favourite release this year! I've come to expect original ideas from Stan for a while now and I'm never disappointed.
Daniel Crossley, www.fluid-radio.co.uk
08. Favourite food (or Snax): It's cooking fillet steak 'asado style' over the grill outside our van in the many wildcamping spots we found throughout Argentina
dionysus
01. Favourite track: Maybe not the greatest song eva! But the track I've listened to the most is:
Dawn Day Night - The Re-Animation of Scottie
Have a good New Year y'all! Off to Barca...
Muttley
01. Favourite track: Grouper - Holding (Kranky, released October 31st 2014).
(1st of Top 20; remainder 19 of Top 20)
Angel Olsen - Windows
Ryan Teague - Scale And Ratio
Digital & Spirit - Wayout
Colo - Doorframe 1
Betty Davis - If I'm In Luck I Might Get Picked Up
Audion - Motormouth
Tropic Of Coldness - Distressing Dilemma Of Rational Choices
Saaad - After Love
Blue Six - No Two Things
Little Red - Down
Bat For Lashes - Skin Song
ASC - Some Other Life
Mizeyesis - Spring Hope
Equinox - Tribulation
VVV - Turn Away
Jo Quail - South West Night
36 - Always
DJ Trax - '89 'Till Infinity
Foci's Left - Anything Becomes Possible With Time
02. Favourite album: Little Red - Sticks And Stones (All Will Be Well)
(1st of Top 5; remainder of Top 5)
Grouper - Ruins
Jo Quail - Caldera
Christopher Willits - Opening
Metamorphosis - Conception 1982
03. Favourite label: For once, as there's too many labels I like to choose from, it's a production house: Novation.
I bought this analog synthesiser in the Summer as a proto-housewarming present, and have since been making several practice live sets with the machine. It looks like this:
http://d19ulaff0trnck.cloudfront.net/sites/default/files/novationmusic/products/Bass-Station-II/BS-II-Banner-ii.jpg
Here is the ongoing live sets archive:
http://subvertcentral.com/forum/showthread.php?60699-Foci-s-Left-Live-Set&highlight=foci%27s+left+live
04. Favourite mixtape: Little Red @ Old Fire Station, Oxford, Friday 14th November 2014. Second would be Blevin Blectum's Liveondublab set (on SoundCloud), actually from 2012, while following that is SB81's 92 Hardcore Favourites Mix.
The latter two are reposted at www.soundcloud.com/subversion-2, my and Statto's joint account.
Of my own spurious output it's FTAL 005 - Handling Grief (in the 60,000 unique viewers strong For The Ambient Lovers (FTAL)...review and mixtape archive 001 thread:
http://subvertcentral.com/forum/showthread.php?56404-For-The-Ambient-Lovers-review-and-mixtape-archive-001/page12
05. Favourite SC thread: "today, I..." (begun by Statto in January this year. Because I'm partly a narcissistic bastard).
http://subvertcentral.com/forum/showthread.php?60224-today-I
06. Favourite gig: Little Red + Stuart Clark + Gus Hewlett @ Old Fire Station, Oxford, Friday November 14th 2014.
http://www.subvertcentral.blogspot.co.uk/2014/11/subversion-stop-233-little-red-stuart.html
07. Favourite book: Carlos Castenada - The Art Of Dreaming
(Excerpt from the book, as I haven't really read any other books this year)
"You are not yet ready for a true merging of your dreaming reality and your daily reality", he concluded. "You must recapitulate your life further".
"But I've done all the recapitulating possible", I protested. "I've been recapitulating for years. There is nothing more I can remember about my life".
"There must be much more", he said adamantly, "otherwise, you wouldn't wake up screaming".
I did not like the idea of having to recapitulate again. I had done it, and I believed I had done it so well that I did not need to touch the subject ever again".
"The recapitulation of our lives never ends, no matter how well we've done it once", don Juan said. "The reason average people lack volition in their dreams is that they have never recapitulated and their lives are filled to capacity with heavily loaded emotions like memories, hopes, fears, et cetera, et cetera.
"Sorcerers, in contrast, are relatively free from heavy, binding emotions, because of their recapitulation. And if something stops them, as it has stopped you at this moment, the assumption is that there still is something in them that is not quite clear".
"To recapitulate is too involving, don Juan. Maybe there is something else I can do instead".
"No. There isn't. Recapitulating and dreaming go hand in hand. As we regurgitate our lives, we get more and more airborne".
Don Juan had given me very detailed and explicit instructions about the recapitulation. It consisted of reliving the totality of one's life experiences by remembering every possible minute detail of them. He saw the recapitulation as the essential factor in a dreamer's redefinition and redeployment of energy. "The recapitulation sets free energy imprisoned within us, and without the this liberated energy dreaming is not possible". That was his statement.
Years before, don Juan had coached me to make a list of all the people I had met in my life, starting at the present. He helped me to arrange my list in an orderly fashion, breaking it down into areas of activity, such as jobs I had had, schools I had attended. Then he guided me to go, without deviation, from the first person on my list to the last one, reliving every one of my interactions with them.
He explained that recapitulating an event with one's mind arranging everything pertinent to what is being recapitulated. Arranging means reconstructing the event, piece by piece, starting by recollecting the physical details of the surroundings, then going to the person with whom one shared the interaction, and then going to oneself, to the examination of one's feelings.
Don Juan taught me that the recapitulation is coupled with a natural, rhythmical breathing. Long exhalations are performed as the head moves slowly and gently from right to left; and long inhalations are taken as the head moves back from left to right. He called this act of moving the head from side to side "fanning the event". The mind examines the event from beginning to end while the body fans, on and on, everything the mind focuses on.
Don Juan said that the sorcerers of antiquity, the inventors of the recapitulation, viewed breathing as a magical, life-giving act and used it, accordingly, as a magical vehicle; the exhalation, to eject the foreign energy left in them during the interaction being recapitulated and the inhalation to pull back the energy that they themselves left behind during the interaction.
Because of my academic training, I took the recapitulation to be the process of analysing one's life. But don Juan insisted that it was more involved than an intellectual psychoanalysis. He postulated the recapitulation as a sorcerer's play to induce a minute but steady displacement of the assemblage point. He said that the assemblage point, under the impact of reviewing past actions and feelings, goes back and forth between its present site and the site it occupied when the event being recapitulated took place.
Don Juan stated that the old sorcerers' rationale behind the recapitulation was their conviction that there is an inconceivable dissolving force in the universe, which makes organisms live by lending them awareness. That force also makes organisms die, in order to extract the same lent awareness, which organisms have enhanced through their life experiences. Don Juan explained the old sorcerers' reasoning. They believed that since it is our life experience this force is after, it is of supreme importance that it can be satisfied with a facsimile of our life experience: the recapitulation. Having had what it seeks, the dissolving force then lets sorcerers go, free to expand their capacity to perceive and reach with it the confines of time and space." ~ Carlos Castenada, The Art Of Dreaming, p147-149.
08. Favourite food (or Snax): Beef Rogan Josh, Slimming World Fakeaway Style, with added Chickpeas.
Rogan recipe (For clarity when using Lamb instead of Beef as in the original Slimming World guidelines - just get some fry Beef Steaks or Boneless Beef for the Beef version and cook for the same time)
"This rich and meaty north Indian stew is infused with enticing spices that leave a lovely warmth in your mouth. We've
added carrots and swede, though you could use other root vegetables like potato or parsnip).
Free on Extra Easy and Original SlimmingW plan, 9 1/2 on Green (more vegetable based weight loss plan, the quickest diet)
Ready in 2 hours.
Ingredients
low calorie cooking spray
500g lean lamb steaks, visible fat removed, cut into bite-sized chunks
2 onions, finely chopped
3 garlic cloves, crushed
2cm piece of root ginger, peeled and finely grated
2 cinnamon sticks
2 tsp chilli powder
2 tsp paprika
1 tsp cardamom seeds, crushed
4 tbsp medium curry powder
400g can chopped tomatoes
1 tsp sweetener
600ml boiling lamb stock
2 carrots, peeled and cut into bite-sized pieces
1 swede, peeled and cut into bite-sized pieces
salt and freshly ground black pepper
small handful of finely chopped fresh coriander, to garnish
(Me: you might want to add natural yogurt/creme fresh to cool the heat down).
Spray a large, heavy-based casserole pan (or wok) with low calorie cooking spray and place over a medium-high heat.
Add the lamb and cook for 4 minutes, stirring, or until browned (you may need to do this in batches).
Transfer the lamb to a plate with a slotted spoon.
Spray the casserole pan with low calorie cooking spray again and add the onions.
Cook over a medium heat for 10 minutes, stirring often, until soft and lightly browned.
Add the garlic, ginger, cinnamon, chilli powder, paprika and cardamom seeds.
Stir-fry for 2 minutes then add the curry powder and return the lamb to the pan (or wok).
Stir-fry for 2-3 minutes then stir in the tomatoes, sweetener, stock, carrots and swede.
Season well and bring the mixture to a boil.
Reduce the heat to low and cover tightly. Simmer gently for 1 hour 30 minutes or until the lamb is meltingly tender.
Remove from the heat, scatter over the coriander and serve with rice of your choice.
*
I have had so much amazing food this year, mainly from The First Floor, Cowley, my favourite restaurant in my life so far. Some dishes:
Indian: Mutton Dopiaza / Handi Ghost / Butter Chicken / Chef's Special Lamb / Lamb Madras
Chinese: Szechuan Beef and Sweet Chilli Curry / Lamb in Oyster Sauce / Tofu in Sweet Chilli Sauce / Chinese Seaweed / Chicken in S&S sauce
Thai: Chicken Massaman Curry / Deep Fried Fish / Chicken Satay / Chicken in hot Mustard sauce / Deep Fried Thai Noodles
Other Oxford restaurants that come recommended are: La Cucina Italian (St. Clements); Thai Orchid (St. Clements); Arbat (providing you don't have an unremarkable starter, the Cheese-topped grilled Gammon with a Toffee Madeira Cake for dessert is great - Russian - Cowley); Majiliss (Cowley); Mirch Masala (Cowley); Rice Box (Cowley); The Beehive (Carterton - particularly Puy Lentil & Sweet Potato curry).
09. Favourite guilty pleasure: losing 1 1/2 stone by Summer to take my weight down to a much healthier 16.7. For 6'5 I want to be getting down to a weight that still isn't overweight - hoping to touch 16st next year.
10. Favourite random moment: Favourite and least favourite at the same time - struggling with personal identity and family relationship as to how my family in relation to my friends fit into my world.
11. In light InfiniteSloth's adaptation list I'm adding two optional to others entries to mine, one being: favourite festival. Which is:
Pindrop Performances Presents: Midwinter Drone Fest @ Modern Art Oxford, 11.12.14 (Petrels, Paddox, After The Thought, James Maund, Lee Riley)
Mind blowing event.
12. Favourite below radar movement: Eilean Rec. - https://eileanrec.bandcamp.com/
EOY Charts 2013-2015 SC thread
2012 (7 contributors - 10 entry format)
This year it's a max of 15 extravaganza with the SV Drip-Feed underpinning everything.
I'm at the bottom for reasons of space. :)
Jonathan
01. Favourite track: Tom Chang - Spinal Tap: Goes to 11
02. Favourite album: various - The Orchestra of Futurist Noise Intoners (Sub Rosa)
03. Favourite label: Dancing Wayang
04. Favourite mixtape: DJ Trax - Mixrace 92-96 mix (for Blog to the Oldskool)
05. Favourite SC thread: In this thread we post tips to decrease apathy
06. Favourite gig: Dave Phillips, Rammel Club, Nottingham
07. Favourite book: Ivan E. Coyote & Rae Spoon - Gender Failure (Arsenal Pulp Press)
08. Favourite food (or Snax): Borders' Dark Chocolate Gingers
09. Favourite guilty pleasure: I'm too old to feel guilty about pleasure.
10. Favourite random moment: looking at the Championship table today and seeing Brentford in third after a 4-0 win
InfiniteSloth
Label (overall): Samurai
Label (for concept and art direction): Weevil Neighborhood
Snax: almond butter and raw cashew cheese tacos
Remix: Hidden Element and Liquid Break - Outsider Blues (Icarus Remix)
Gig: NOizefest, New Orleans
Streaming platform: Spotify
Dig: Max Roach 4 Plays Charlie Parker
Youtube channel: Numberphile
Random moment: Lenny Kravitz strolling down the street while I was walking the dog.
SC thread revivalist: firefinga
Kermit McBollocks Muppet Version 10
Favourite trak - Kermit Ensemble - It's Not Eezy Being Green
Favourite albm - ASC - Troof Bee Told (Soylent Seesawn)
Favourite fred - Kermit's Dictionary Fred, wer I correct der fadar about his grown up werd usage.
Favourite muppet - Muttwee, the ever-stinking ferris Wheel Of Fortune of the internet.
Favwit book - Pool Mackendra - Change Yor Loif In Seven Daze - vewwy moteevational!
Favwit feckwit - Russell Brand, he iz raizin his Sultan status of shitness by der day.
Favoureet telly - Mongrels, so oi can curse at der Nelson for not pimpin der Destinee
Favvit food - caveearr, ho ho ho and a bucket of finest Champagne.
Favourite mix type - Stattzi
Favweet label - Elmo, it bee zee ome of Muttwee's loif in pictures, and in the past tense.
Yelp!
firefinga
*) SC Thread of the Year:
Most "current" sounding subvert dnb made in the 2000's?
http://subvertcentral.com/forum/show...-in-the-2000-
*)Label of the Year:
Euphony's Omni Music, Pinecone Moonshine, Subtle Audio, R & S
*)Mixtape/Radioshows of the Year:
DJ Trax and Nucleus' "Catch A Groove" Shows, Code's "Sublte Audio" shows, both on Jungletrain.net.
Euphony's Omni Sessions, Law's and eXtreme's mixes.
*)Guilty Pleasure 2014:
Reading the News section on Factmag.com and occasionally posting links on here.
*)TV Show 2014:
Last season of "Breaking Bad"
*)Movie 2014:
Snowpiercer
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1706620/
*)Book 2014
Bernie Krause "The Great Animal Orchestra"
http://www.thegreatanimalorchestra.com/
*)Album 2014:
+)Subtle Audio Vol. III
+)The Bug "Angels & Devils"
+)Dev Null's "Darkside Compilation" on 8205 Recordings:
http://8205.bandcamp.com/album/darks...mpilation-2014
*)Track of the Year:
DJ Trax and Naibu "All Is Silent" on Subtle Audio Vol. III
https://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=Q-OvAYtkq0A
Euphony
01. Favourite track: Too numerous, but the following had me groovin' in my undies; Entama - Primeval Forces (Cadence)
02. Favourite album: Cryogenics - Through the Eons LP or Rainforest - Path of the Warrior LP
03. Favourite label: Monochrome
04. Favourite mixtape: Anything mixed by Cryogenics :)
05. Favourite SC thread:
07. Favourite book: Intelligence in nature (Jeremy Narby), Chaos, Creativity and Cosmic Consciousness (Sheldrake, McKenna, Abraham) and Ninja by John Man
08. Favourite food (or Snax): My delectable spicy casseroles
09. Favourite guilty pleasure: Walking on my own in the rain
10. Favourite random moment: Either: going out for a pub meal and sitting there complaining about the fact that they had to change the menu, as the previous one was really good and better value, and complained to the staff as a result. We also didn't like the way they had re-decorated, but we kept that whinge to ourselves. Anyway, it wasn't until we were driving home out of the village that we suddenly spied the pub we were meant to (and thought we were!) eating in! d'oh!....That's something my dad would do! jaysus....or: Trying to gatecrash Brad and Angelina's film set in Gozo only to be chased away by dogs
J-Breaks, www.omnimusic.org
02. Favourite album: Kontext - Dispersal (Absys Limited). Definitely my favourite release this year! I've come to expect original ideas from Stan for a while now and I'm never disappointed.
Daniel Crossley, www.fluid-radio.co.uk
08. Favourite food (or Snax): It's cooking fillet steak 'asado style' over the grill outside our van in the many wildcamping spots we found throughout Argentina
dionysus
01. Favourite track: Maybe not the greatest song eva! But the track I've listened to the most is:
Dawn Day Night - The Re-Animation of Scottie
Have a good New Year y'all! Off to Barca...
Muttley
01. Favourite track: Grouper - Holding (Kranky, released October 31st 2014).
(1st of Top 20; remainder 19 of Top 20)
Angel Olsen - Windows
Ryan Teague - Scale And Ratio
Digital & Spirit - Wayout
Colo - Doorframe 1
Betty Davis - If I'm In Luck I Might Get Picked Up
Audion - Motormouth
Tropic Of Coldness - Distressing Dilemma Of Rational Choices
Saaad - After Love
Blue Six - No Two Things
Little Red - Down
Bat For Lashes - Skin Song
ASC - Some Other Life
Mizeyesis - Spring Hope
Equinox - Tribulation
VVV - Turn Away
Jo Quail - South West Night
36 - Always
DJ Trax - '89 'Till Infinity
Foci's Left - Anything Becomes Possible With Time
02. Favourite album: Little Red - Sticks And Stones (All Will Be Well)
(1st of Top 5; remainder of Top 5)
Grouper - Ruins
Jo Quail - Caldera
Christopher Willits - Opening
Metamorphosis - Conception 1982
03. Favourite label: For once, as there's too many labels I like to choose from, it's a production house: Novation.
I bought this analog synthesiser in the Summer as a proto-housewarming present, and have since been making several practice live sets with the machine. It looks like this:
http://d19ulaff0trnck.cloudfront.net/sites/default/files/novationmusic/products/Bass-Station-II/BS-II-Banner-ii.jpg
Here is the ongoing live sets archive:
http://subvertcentral.com/forum/showthread.php?60699-Foci-s-Left-Live-Set&highlight=foci%27s+left+live
04. Favourite mixtape: Little Red @ Old Fire Station, Oxford, Friday 14th November 2014. Second would be Blevin Blectum's Liveondublab set (on SoundCloud), actually from 2012, while following that is SB81's 92 Hardcore Favourites Mix.
The latter two are reposted at www.soundcloud.com/subversion-2, my and Statto's joint account.
Of my own spurious output it's FTAL 005 - Handling Grief (in the 60,000 unique viewers strong For The Ambient Lovers (FTAL)...review and mixtape archive 001 thread:
http://subvertcentral.com/forum/showthread.php?56404-For-The-Ambient-Lovers-review-and-mixtape-archive-001/page12
05. Favourite SC thread: "today, I..." (begun by Statto in January this year. Because I'm partly a narcissistic bastard).
http://subvertcentral.com/forum/showthread.php?60224-today-I
06. Favourite gig: Little Red + Stuart Clark + Gus Hewlett @ Old Fire Station, Oxford, Friday November 14th 2014.
http://www.subvertcentral.blogspot.co.uk/2014/11/subversion-stop-233-little-red-stuart.html
07. Favourite book: Carlos Castenada - The Art Of Dreaming
(Excerpt from the book, as I haven't really read any other books this year)
"You are not yet ready for a true merging of your dreaming reality and your daily reality", he concluded. "You must recapitulate your life further".
"But I've done all the recapitulating possible", I protested. "I've been recapitulating for years. There is nothing more I can remember about my life".
"There must be much more", he said adamantly, "otherwise, you wouldn't wake up screaming".
I did not like the idea of having to recapitulate again. I had done it, and I believed I had done it so well that I did not need to touch the subject ever again".
"The recapitulation of our lives never ends, no matter how well we've done it once", don Juan said. "The reason average people lack volition in their dreams is that they have never recapitulated and their lives are filled to capacity with heavily loaded emotions like memories, hopes, fears, et cetera, et cetera.
"Sorcerers, in contrast, are relatively free from heavy, binding emotions, because of their recapitulation. And if something stops them, as it has stopped you at this moment, the assumption is that there still is something in them that is not quite clear".
"To recapitulate is too involving, don Juan. Maybe there is something else I can do instead".
"No. There isn't. Recapitulating and dreaming go hand in hand. As we regurgitate our lives, we get more and more airborne".
Don Juan had given me very detailed and explicit instructions about the recapitulation. It consisted of reliving the totality of one's life experiences by remembering every possible minute detail of them. He saw the recapitulation as the essential factor in a dreamer's redefinition and redeployment of energy. "The recapitulation sets free energy imprisoned within us, and without the this liberated energy dreaming is not possible". That was his statement.
Years before, don Juan had coached me to make a list of all the people I had met in my life, starting at the present. He helped me to arrange my list in an orderly fashion, breaking it down into areas of activity, such as jobs I had had, schools I had attended. Then he guided me to go, without deviation, from the first person on my list to the last one, reliving every one of my interactions with them.
He explained that recapitulating an event with one's mind arranging everything pertinent to what is being recapitulated. Arranging means reconstructing the event, piece by piece, starting by recollecting the physical details of the surroundings, then going to the person with whom one shared the interaction, and then going to oneself, to the examination of one's feelings.
Don Juan taught me that the recapitulation is coupled with a natural, rhythmical breathing. Long exhalations are performed as the head moves slowly and gently from right to left; and long inhalations are taken as the head moves back from left to right. He called this act of moving the head from side to side "fanning the event". The mind examines the event from beginning to end while the body fans, on and on, everything the mind focuses on.
Don Juan said that the sorcerers of antiquity, the inventors of the recapitulation, viewed breathing as a magical, life-giving act and used it, accordingly, as a magical vehicle; the exhalation, to eject the foreign energy left in them during the interaction being recapitulated and the inhalation to pull back the energy that they themselves left behind during the interaction.
Because of my academic training, I took the recapitulation to be the process of analysing one's life. But don Juan insisted that it was more involved than an intellectual psychoanalysis. He postulated the recapitulation as a sorcerer's play to induce a minute but steady displacement of the assemblage point. He said that the assemblage point, under the impact of reviewing past actions and feelings, goes back and forth between its present site and the site it occupied when the event being recapitulated took place.
Don Juan stated that the old sorcerers' rationale behind the recapitulation was their conviction that there is an inconceivable dissolving force in the universe, which makes organisms live by lending them awareness. That force also makes organisms die, in order to extract the same lent awareness, which organisms have enhanced through their life experiences. Don Juan explained the old sorcerers' reasoning. They believed that since it is our life experience this force is after, it is of supreme importance that it can be satisfied with a facsimile of our life experience: the recapitulation. Having had what it seeks, the dissolving force then lets sorcerers go, free to expand their capacity to perceive and reach with it the confines of time and space." ~ Carlos Castenada, The Art Of Dreaming, p147-149.
08. Favourite food (or Snax): Beef Rogan Josh, Slimming World Fakeaway Style, with added Chickpeas.
Rogan recipe (For clarity when using Lamb instead of Beef as in the original Slimming World guidelines - just get some fry Beef Steaks or Boneless Beef for the Beef version and cook for the same time)
"This rich and meaty north Indian stew is infused with enticing spices that leave a lovely warmth in your mouth. We've
added carrots and swede, though you could use other root vegetables like potato or parsnip).
Free on Extra Easy and Original SlimmingW plan, 9 1/2 on Green (more vegetable based weight loss plan, the quickest diet)
Ready in 2 hours.
Ingredients
low calorie cooking spray
500g lean lamb steaks, visible fat removed, cut into bite-sized chunks
2 onions, finely chopped
3 garlic cloves, crushed
2cm piece of root ginger, peeled and finely grated
2 cinnamon sticks
2 tsp chilli powder
2 tsp paprika
1 tsp cardamom seeds, crushed
4 tbsp medium curry powder
400g can chopped tomatoes
1 tsp sweetener
600ml boiling lamb stock
2 carrots, peeled and cut into bite-sized pieces
1 swede, peeled and cut into bite-sized pieces
salt and freshly ground black pepper
small handful of finely chopped fresh coriander, to garnish
(Me: you might want to add natural yogurt/creme fresh to cool the heat down).
Spray a large, heavy-based casserole pan (or wok) with low calorie cooking spray and place over a medium-high heat.
Add the lamb and cook for 4 minutes, stirring, or until browned (you may need to do this in batches).
Transfer the lamb to a plate with a slotted spoon.
Spray the casserole pan with low calorie cooking spray again and add the onions.
Cook over a medium heat for 10 minutes, stirring often, until soft and lightly browned.
Add the garlic, ginger, cinnamon, chilli powder, paprika and cardamom seeds.
Stir-fry for 2 minutes then add the curry powder and return the lamb to the pan (or wok).
Stir-fry for 2-3 minutes then stir in the tomatoes, sweetener, stock, carrots and swede.
Season well and bring the mixture to a boil.
Reduce the heat to low and cover tightly. Simmer gently for 1 hour 30 minutes or until the lamb is meltingly tender.
Remove from the heat, scatter over the coriander and serve with rice of your choice.
*
I have had so much amazing food this year, mainly from The First Floor, Cowley, my favourite restaurant in my life so far. Some dishes:
Indian: Mutton Dopiaza / Handi Ghost / Butter Chicken / Chef's Special Lamb / Lamb Madras
Chinese: Szechuan Beef and Sweet Chilli Curry / Lamb in Oyster Sauce / Tofu in Sweet Chilli Sauce / Chinese Seaweed / Chicken in S&S sauce
Thai: Chicken Massaman Curry / Deep Fried Fish / Chicken Satay / Chicken in hot Mustard sauce / Deep Fried Thai Noodles
Other Oxford restaurants that come recommended are: La Cucina Italian (St. Clements); Thai Orchid (St. Clements); Arbat (providing you don't have an unremarkable starter, the Cheese-topped grilled Gammon with a Toffee Madeira Cake for dessert is great - Russian - Cowley); Majiliss (Cowley); Mirch Masala (Cowley); Rice Box (Cowley); The Beehive (Carterton - particularly Puy Lentil & Sweet Potato curry).
09. Favourite guilty pleasure: losing 1 1/2 stone by Summer to take my weight down to a much healthier 16.7. For 6'5 I want to be getting down to a weight that still isn't overweight - hoping to touch 16st next year.
10. Favourite random moment: Favourite and least favourite at the same time - struggling with personal identity and family relationship as to how my family in relation to my friends fit into my world.
11. In light InfiniteSloth's adaptation list I'm adding two optional to others entries to mine, one being: favourite festival. Which is:
Pindrop Performances Presents: Midwinter Drone Fest @ Modern Art Oxford, 11.12.14 (Petrels, Paddox, After The Thought, James Maund, Lee Riley)
Mind blowing event.
12. Favourite below radar movement: Eilean Rec. - https://eileanrec.bandcamp.com/
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SubVersion Stop 230: In this thread we post tips to decrease apathy
In this thread we post tips to decrease apathy
This has been on my mind recently, because I have direct experience with lots of it: apathy towards doing anything at all.
I'm not talking "I'm pissed off, so I'm just gonna go smoke a blunt" type apathy. I'm talking everything that centres around general depression.
I don't wish to get involved in much chat about my own problems anymore as I believe it does more harm than good, but I will say this has been happening daily ever since I was deemed unable to work and got signed off. In figures, since May 2008.
I've had good times and bad times all the same, like anyone who lives life. But I'd like to know: how do you help remedy apathy towards doing stuff?
I'll start ...I have become taut to the tendency of taking a nap in the middle of the day. I find this helps give me purpose and focus when planning things to do.
You?
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